Ruth Sadelle Alderson

Disagreeing with fandom since 1999.

April Writing Goals Report/Fic Roundup, May Writing Goals
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Fic Roundup

I decided this month that I'm no longer crossposting fic and snippets here, so instead I'll do a roundup in my monthly writing posts. My Tumblr theme is meant to be easy to read, but if any of you have accessibility issues with it, let me know and I'll crosspost snippets here.

Snippet: Bit of a Domestic (gen Sherlock ridiculousness, 800 words)
"Yes," Molly says just as John, Greg, and Sally walk into the flat. She throws a look at John. "Did he take your things for experiments without replacing them?"

Chiefly Responsible for Discipline (6430 words)
Fandom: James Bond (Craig movies)
Rating: Explicit
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Relationships: James Bond/Q, James Bond/Q/Original Male Character
Characters: Q (Bond - Craig movies), James Bond, Original Male Character(s)
Additional Tags: BDSM, Impact Play, Spanking, Power Dynamics
Summary: "Are you saying I'll get better results if I put you under the lash when you don't return your equipment?"

Exercises In Mutual Pleasure (11220 words)
Fandom: James Bond (Craig movies)
Rating: Explicit
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: James Bond/Q
Characters: James Bond, Q (Bond - Craig movies)
Additional Tags: Dating
Summary:Q leans forward, hands folded on the table in front of him, which appears to be a tell that he's about to be serious. "I think if you only live in the field, you're less likely to remember there's a reason to live when you're out of it."

Goals

Report on April:
  • Finish the Bond crackfic. - Check!

  • Keep working on Bond bad sex fic. Possibly also come up with a more accurate way to refer to it. - Check!

  • Edit/post at least one Bond story. - Check!

  • Write miscellaneous snippets as inspired. - Check!

  • Say positive things on Twitter. - Check!
Goals for May:
  • Keep working on Bond bad sex fic.

  • Work on the each 00 has their own Q story.

  • Edit/post at least one Bond story.

  • Write miscellaneous snippets as inspired.

  • Say positive things on Twitter.

March Writing Goals Report, April Writing Goals
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Report on March:
  • Finish both of the Bond things I'm writing. - Finished one, am almost done with another one, and started writing something else.

  • Edit the movie fic and the finished Bond fic. - Edited/posted the movie fic and did a first read-through on one Bond story.

  • Write miscellaneous snippets as inspired. - Check!

  • Say positive things on Twitter. - Check!
Goals for April:
  • Finish the Bond crackfic.

  • Keep working on Bond bad sex fic. Possibly also come up with a more accurate way to refer to it.

  • Edit/post at least one Bond story.

  • Write miscellaneous snippets as inspired.

  • Say positive things on Twitter.

Fic: The Bloom of the Rose (Snow White and the Huntsman, Snow White/Huntsman, 2200 words, G)
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Summary: "Your kingdom has been isolated. It would be well for news to come of the lands beyond its borders."

Notes: I listened to Déanta's "Culloden's Harvest" on repeat while writing this. It's not thematically exactly right, but it fit atmospherically.


Story on AO3


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February Writing Goals Report, March Writing Goals
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Report on February:
  • Finish both of the Bond things I'm writing. - Finished one, still working on the other, and started a third.

  • Edit the movie fic. - No.

  • Write miscellaneous snippets as inspired. - Check!

  • Say positive things on Twitter. - Check!
Goals for March:
  • Finish both of the Bond things I'm writing.

  • Edit the movie fic and the finished Bond fic.

  • Write miscellaneous snippets as inspired.

  • Say positive things on Twitter.

Crying
rsadelle
I've been thinking about crying a lot recently. I'm generally in favor of crying. There are some obvious caveats: crying as deliberate manipulation and the white women's tears phenomenon are shitty behaviors we shouldn't engage in, and if you're crying so much it's having a distinctively negative impact on your life, it's time to seek some professional help. But as a personal, individual release of emotion, I'm all for it.

I signed up for Danielle LaPorte's free Fire Starter Sessions audio course. I think one of Danielle's greatest strengths is that she writes really great self-inquiry questions, and that's true of the Fire Starter Sessions worksheets. Any time you go deep with self-inquiry, it brings stuff up, and I've spent some time crying about some of the stuff doing these worksheets is bringing up. It's not really surprising; I'm a crier. I cry at nearly every Grey's Anatomy episode. I sob my way through the endings of really emotional books. I like going to movies that require kleenex.

Going by the publication dates, I was most likely junior high aged when I read Jerry Spinelli's School Daze books. I don't remember much about the plot, but there are a few things I remember clearly. One of them is this bit of wisdom from Salem Brownmiller, who was the mental template Hermione Granger later fit into:

"Hollered at you? That's even worse. Feelings hurt more than bones. You have to let it out, don't you know that? You boys are so dumb. Listen, you know how you feel better after you throw up?"

Raymond nodded. "Uh-huh."

"Well, crying is like that. Tears are like your feelings throwing up. You'll feel better. Come on now, I'll cry with you. Let it out."
My yoga teacher tells us that we hold emotion in our bodies, and sometimes doing yoga can release that. "You might feel like laughing or crying," she says. You don't have to know why, or what you were holding on to. The release is what matters. When someone was having trouble with the class because she kept crying, our teacher told her, "I think we should laugh every day and we should cry every day." In the middle of working my way through some of the tougher Fire Starter Sessions worksheets - particularly thinking about your past failures and facing down your fears - I spent a yoga class tearing up.

Last week's PostSecret included an email from a young woman about her experience at The PostSecret Show. At the end of the show, she wrote a secret on a whiteboard about how inspirational her mom is and sent it to her mom:

She was in tears. She called me crying and told me how much that meant to her and how much she loves me. I was crying as well. My mom told me that even my dad was in tears; my dad doesn’t cry often so I considered this an accomplishment. I continued to tell my mom how much I cried because of PostSecret. Her response was this: "You are a rock most of the time. Sometimes it’s okay to be the river."
It's good advice. Cry. Let go. Be the river.

January Writing Goals Report, February Writing Goals
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Report on January:
  • Write something. Possibly movie fic, possibly Yuletide story sequel, possibly something else. - Check! I wrote movie fic and also the beginnings of some Bond things.

  • Write miscellaneous snippets as inspired. - Check!

  • Say positive things on Twitter. - Check!
Goals for February:
  • Finish both of the Bond things I'm writing.

  • Edit the movie fic.

  • Write miscellaneous snippets as inspired.

  • Say positive things on Twitter.

December Writing Goals Report, January Writing Goals
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Report on December:
  • Maybe return to the completely different thing. - No.

  • Finish/post Yuletide story. - Check!

  • Write miscellaneous snippets as inspired. - Check!

  • Say positive things on Twitter. - Check!
Goals for January:
  • Write something. Possibly movie fic, possibly Yuletide story sequel, possibly something else.

  • Write miscellaneous snippets as inspired.

  • Say positive things on Twitter.

2016 Goals
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I'm not making any writing related goals this year. I will write, and I'm going to keep doing my weekly email check-ins and monthly LJ check-ins but I'm just going to write whatever I want and let it just happen. Goals for this year:

Save money.
This is kind of a hard one, since some of my other goals involve spending money and I would ideally like to buy new winter clothes next winter (since I bought new summer clothes this year). In practice:
  • Increase the monthly automatic transfer from my checking account to my savings account.

  • Minimal travel. My sister by choice had a baby at the beginning of December, and I want to go visit her and her family this spring. If I can swing a super cheap hotel room, couple of days at the beach this summer would probably be good for my soul. Otherwise, no traveling. (I do have enough frequent flier miles for a free domestic flight, but I would like to save those for a potential 2017 vacation with lakeeffectgirl.)

  • Ask for a raise. This worked out for me this year, and it's a thing I have to do since this is the first job I've ever had where there isn't some sort of automatic yearly cost of living adjustment or performance review + merit-based raise.
Take care of my car. At the very least, my car needs some recall-based maintenance, a belt replaced, and whatever is causing my check engine light to be on all the time fixed (this has to be done early this year because I think my car has to pass smog inspection this year). Ideally, I would also have whatever is causing the SRS light to be on fixed. (I hope it's just the seat belts, which probably do need replacing and won't cost me any money.)

Take care of my health. My health is generally pretty good, but some things I need to do this year:
  • Find a new doctor/nurse practitioner. I haven't been to a doctor in a few years, and I both have some specific health concerns and need a basic checkup, including blood work.

  • Gum grafts for my teeth. I ate mandarins this winter, and the gum recession increased (probably because of the acidity) to the point that drinking cold water/eating cold foods hurt some of my teeth, which has done way more than any of my dental hygienist's lectures to convince me I really have to do this. Insurance-wise, this probably means I only do the first one this year.

  • Deal with the thing where I get depressed in the summer. This has been going on for a long time, it got really bad this summer, and I need to be serious about taking care of it. I tried sleeping more this summer, which helped, but didn't fix it all and took a lot of time out of my life. The first step here is to talk to whatever health care professional I find.

  • Take time off at least once a quarter, and take more time off during the summer. I haven't taken any vacation time since I got back from visiting lakeeffectgirl at the end of September, and I'm really feeling the mental/emotional strain of that. This week I'm going to start teaching my new coworker how to do my job so I can take some days off.
Local connections. I don't really have local friends. There's one other friend, but I don't know if we've spent enough time together to know if we want to be close friends, and mostly we see each other when another friend is in town. I'm really lonely for in-person friendships. I miss hanging out talking about everyday things that aren't worth sending an email about and seeing movies with other people. In practical terms for this year: Do at least one thing every month to either meet new people locally or strengthen connections with people I know locally. As my dad says, it's hard to make new friends if you don't go to bars or church, so this probably means branching out in trying out meetups (even when they're inconvenient) and/or possibly finding some sort of volunteer project to join or class to take. At the risk of being too picky, things I'm looking for in new friends:
  • People who can/will listen nonjudgmentally. This means listening, acknowledging the reality of my feelings, and only offering advice when asked. I will, of course, do my very best to offer the same to them.

  • People who will allow me my joy. I've gotten better over the years at gauging what sort of movies I should just go see alone, but I've also had experiences, with various friends, where I felt like I didn't get to enjoy something I actually really liked because the immediate reaction was for them to talk about how terrible it was. I'm also working on not saying mean things about things other people like.

  • People who can keep up with a conversation. I have met some lovely people over the years who just made conversations drag because they couldn't move on with the group. There's being excited about a thing you want to talk about all the time, which is one thing, and then there's just not being able to keep up, which is not fun for me.

  • People who can/want to hang out at times and places that also work for me. Deep down, I'm a little old lady: I go to bed early and I don't like really noisy places.

2015 Year In Review - Goals
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I deliberately didn't make goals last year. In a lot of ways this was good for me. It was good for me to chill out and be able to remind myself, over and over again, "You don't have to do anything right now." At the same time, I feel like I didn't do anything this year since I don't have any goals to say I accomplished, and I think I need a little more structure.

Yuletide 2015
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Stories For Me

I got three stories for Yuletide! They are all on the theme of women after they give up on their mother's dreams for them, which is not surprising based on my requests, but still interesting. Also, when it became reveal time, I recognized two of these authors from other fandoms. I recommend them if you're familiar with the fandoms.

So Is It Wrong To Dance This Line (1135 words) by gaialux
Fandom: Dance Academy
Rating: Teen and Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Kat Karamakov/Ethan Karamakov
Characters: Kat Karamakov, Ethan Karamakov, Natasha Willis
Additional Tags: Slice of Life, Implied/Referenced Incest
Summary: Often enough, all they had was each other and dancing.

In the Shadows, In the Light (1682 words) by escritoireazul
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Ice Princess (2005)
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Ann (Ice Princess)/Gen Harwood
Characters: Gen Harwood, Ann (Ice Princess), Casey Carlyle
Additional Tags: First Kiss, Female Friendship, Yuletide Treat, Awkward Flirting
Summary:

Gen Harwood gave up figure skating to have a regular life. Now she just has to figure out what that means.

Plan B (2634 words) by carolinecrane
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Ice Princess (2005)
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Gen/Ann
Characters: Gen Harwood, Ann (Ice Princess)
Additional Tags: Post-Canon, Yuletide Treat, Accidental Dating
Summary:

Gen walked away from her Plan A. Ann's Plan A just didn't work out, but Plan B's not always such a bad thing.

Story By Me

I was about 90% sure I wouldn't get matched on The Fast and the Furious because I only offered Mia and Letty and I figured anyone requesting it would request Dom and/or Brian. I got matched with someone who requested any characters and specifically mentioned being interested in Mia in the request, and I really enjoyed writing this alternate path for Mia after the first movie.

And You Welcomed Me (10724 words) by rsadelle
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: The Fast and the Furious (2001), Fast and the Furious Series
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Characters: Mia Toretto, Original Female Character(s), Original Male Character(s)
Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Post-Movie, Families of Choice, Roman Catholicism
Summary:

Mia makes herself a new family.


Fic: And You Welcomed Me (Fast & Furious, Mia gen, 10,700 words, General Audiences)
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Summary: Mia makes herself a new family.

Notes: Happy Yuletide ilyena_sylph! I enjoyed writing this for you, and I hope you enjoy reading it.

Title from Matthew 25:35: "I was a stranger and you welcomed me." Thanks to M and S for read-through and consulting services; any remaining errors are my own.


Story on AO3


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November Writing Goals Report, December Writing Goals
rsadelle
Report on November:
  • Maybe write more of the completely different thing. - No, but I thought about it again today, so not completely forgotten.

  • Write a significant portion of my story for Yuletide. - Check!

  • Write miscellaneous snippets as inspired. - Eh, not really.

  • Say positive things on Twitter. - Mostly.
Goals for December:
  • Maybe return to the completely different thing.

  • Finish/post Yuletide story.

  • Write miscellaneous snippets as inspired.

  • Say positive things on Twitter.

Thankfulness: November 26
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Today I'm thankful for all the everyday things there are to be thankful for: generally good health, a job I like, good and enough food to eat, clean water, electricity, internet.

Happy Thanksgiving. ♥

Thankfulness: November 25
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Today I'm thankful for my ability to amuse myself and laugh at myself for being ridiculous.

Thankfulness: November 24
rsadelle
Today I'm thankful for how warm I've been at work, even when it's cold outside. (I did not adjust the thermostat at all from what it was last winter, but I think I was colder last winter.)

Thankfulness: November 23
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Today I'm thankful for apples with peanut butter.

Thankfulness: November 22
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Today I'm thankful for my friends. ♥

Thankfulness: November 21
rsadelle
Today I'm thankful for a nice Saturday. My mom and I went to see Mockingjay Part 2 this morning, I did most of my grocery shopping for Thanksgiving Friday family dinner, and I've written over 500 words of my Yuletide story (so far).

Thankfulness: November 20
rsadelle
Yesterday I was thankful for fall. We've been having really nice weather, and all the trees that are going to change color have. There's a particular pair of trees at a corner on my way to work that are a gorgeous golden yellow.

Thankfulness: November 19
rsadelle
Yesterday I was thankful for delicious mashed potatoes. (And for not burning myself while making them like the last time I attempted it.)

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