Ruth Sadelle Alderson

Disagreeing with fandom since 1999.

Fic: When It's Right (Hockey, Tyler Brown/Original Female Character, 31800 words, Explicit) 3/3
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Fic: When It's Right (Hockey, Tyler Brown/Original Female Character, 31800 words, Explicit) 2/3
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Fic: When It's Right (Hockey, Tyler Brown/Original Female Character, 31800 words, Explicit) 1/3
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Summary: Kelsey wasn't looking to date, so when the guy in the bar told her he wouldn't call her later, it seemed like a good chance to hook up without having to get entangled any further. It was only ever supposed to be a one-night stand.

Notes: Many thanks to everyone who answered my miscellaneous and varied questions on Twitter, with special thanks to jrho who threw out the title suggestion I ended up using. Everything I know about Glens Falls I learned from the internet; details may be wrong. This roughly follows last season's schedule, but goes slightly AU at the end because reality did not match up to what I'd already written.

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July Writing Goals Report, August Writing Goals
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Report on July:
  • Work on Bollig/Shaw kink fic: start rewriting bits at the beginning and/or figure out/find someone to help me figure out what happens in the middle bits. - Found some people to help me figure out the middle bits.

  • Edit/post TBrown/OFC fic. - Not quite. It needs one more read-through and a title.

  • Work on AGally/Prusty fic. Word count to be determined later. - Check!

  • Write miscellaneous snippets as inspired. - Check!

  • Say positive things on Twitter. - Eh. Some. I had a meltdown and was pretty cranky for a few days in there.

Goals for August:
  • Work on Bollig/Shaw kink fic: start rewriting bits at the beginning and/or do some research to help with the middle bits.

  • Finish editing/post TBrown/OFC fic.

  • Do some work on AGally/Prusty fic every day except Thursdays.

  • Write miscellaneous snippets as inspired.

  • Say positive things on Twitter.

Begin Again
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I kind of wanted to see Begin Again anyway, and then lakeeffectgirl kept talking about how great it is, so I put it on my calendar and went to see it on Saturday.

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Prompt Snippet Roundup
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This took me a little longer than I anticipated, but here's what I wrote:

Better Than a Superhero (LJ, AO3) for dine. Hockey, Alexander Ovechkin, Sidney Crosby, Taylor Crosby, Evgeni Malkin gen, General Audiences, 2600 words: When they're headed out onto the ice, Alex bumps Crosby's shoulder and says, very seriously, "Your sister much prettier than Bennett, but not as pretty as my Masha," and gets rewarded with Crosby's laughter echoing off the glass.

Two Guesses; One Correct (LJ, AO3) for mourning_night. Hockey, Tyler Brown/Tyler Seguin, Teen, 1300 words: Brownie looks even more confused than Tyler did by the whole conversation. "I thought you weren't going to tell him you're a sub yet."

Pour Yourself All Over Me (LJ, AO3) for an anonymous request. Hockey, Danny Briere/P.K. Subban, Explicit, 2300 words: Later, P.K. takes to just showing up at Danny's door, sometimes with food, sometimes just with a smile. Occasionally, when Danny invites him over, with a smirk and comments about Danny making booty calls. But the first time he texts, What's your address?

are you thinking of me the times I'm thinking of you (LJ, AO3) for icanbreakthesky. Hockey, Paul Martin/James Neal, Teen, 2800 words: Five things Paul baked for James, plus one thing James baked for Paul.

Third Wheel (LJ, AO3) for ninja_orange. Hockey, Tyler Brown/Tyler Seguin/Original Female Character, Tyler Brown/Original Female Character, Explicit, 4500 words: "Actually," Katie says, "I think a third wheel is exactly what this date needs."
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How I became insecure about posting fic
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I've made a few false starts at trying to write out this story and I've told bits and pieces of it before, mostly in tiny comments over Twitter, but I haven't told the whole thing to anyone, not even my closest friends. I didn't want - and still don't want - anyone to tell me my feelings are wrong or give me advice. While I might be able to manage it now, at the time I didn't know how to say, even to the people I'm closest to, "This thing happened and my feelings are hurt. Please only say things to me that can be rephrased as 'Poor baby. I'm sorry that happened to you. I love you/think you're great/know you're awesome.'" Telling this story to all of you feels scary and vulnerable: I'm telling you about something that hurt my feelings, I'm telling you about the soft places where I can be hurt, and I just have to trust that you're not going to use it to hurt me.

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June Writing Goals Report, July Writing Goals
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I took a break from rigid writing goals for most of June, which I think was in some ways a good thing, but I think I also need to have some goals. (The thing I haven't figured out: how to have word count goals that I exceed. There's no reason I can't write more words than my goals on days when I have a goal, but I usually don't.) But I also know I need to take good care of myself during the summer, so I think I'm sticking to fun writing goals only (meaning: not my novel) until September at least. Also, until July 6, my goals are just to finish prompt snippets.

Report on June:
  • Do something about selling book two. - No. This is coming off the list. Having it here hasn't made me do anything about it, but it does make me feel bad about not having done something.

  • Work on book three: 100 words per day, except Thursdays and Saturdays. - Did this for a week.

  • Work on Bollig/Shaw kink fic: start rewriting bits at the beginning and/or figure out/find someone to help me figure out what happens in the middle bits. - No.

  • Work on TBrown/OFC fic: 300 words per day, except Thursdays, until it's done. (It's so close!) - Check!

  • Decide if I'm going to do hockeybigbang and, if so, what I'm going to write for it. - Didn't sign up. But did start writing a story, so that's good.

  • Write miscellaneous snippets as inspired. - Check!

  • Say positive things on Twitter. - Somewhat.

Goals for July:
  • Work on Bollig/Shaw kink fic: start rewriting bits at the beginning and/or figure out/find someone to help me figure out what happens in the middle bits.

  • Edit/post TBrown/OFC fic.

  • Work on AGally/Prusty fic. Word count to be determined later.

  • Write miscellaneous snippets as inspired.

  • Say positive things on Twitter.

Fic: Dog Days (Hockey, Tyler Brown/Tyler Seguin, 2300 words, Explicit)
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Summary: This isn't wanting to tie Segs up or Segs wanting to blindfold him or anything like that. This is way out into weird territory.

Notes: The video mentioned in the story is real. Everything else is made up.

Content Note: Puppy play.

Story on AO3


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Four- and Three-Day Weekend Prompt Snippets
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I'm taking tomorrow and Friday off this week and next Friday is a holiday, which means I have a four-day weekend this weekend and three-day weekend next weekend. I'm going to use this time to do what I love to do on long weekends and write prompt snippets.

Leave me a prompt by, say, Saturday morning, and I will write you something by the evening of July 6.

Fine print/guidelines: One per person. Lurkers and anonymous commenters welcome. Generally first come first served, although things may jump the queue depending on inspiration. I will write hockey, but not Patrick Kane or Drew Doughty. I may write other fandoms; feel free to ask if you want something else. I may veer from your prompt. I will take lyric prompts, but be forewarned that I'm not necessarily good at them. I make no promises about length, but in the past prompt snippets have tended to be 300-3000 words.

Fic: Time Out of Sync (Hockey, Carter/Richards, Jeff/Megan, Mike/Lindsey, 4300 words, Explicit)
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Summary: Mike has no idea what to do with the teenage version of his best friend.

Notes: Happy birthday lakeeffectgirl! This is not exactly the teenage!Jeff shows up story I meant to write, but I hope you like it anyway.

Content Note: Non-celebrity partners appear in this story; skip it if that's not your thing.

Story on AO3


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May Writing Goals Report, June Writing Goals
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Report on May:
  • Do something about selling book two. - Still no.

  • Work on book three: 100 words per day, except Thursdays and Saturdays. - Mostly, I was sick and stepped back on writing goals until I felt better.

  • Work on Bollig/Shaw kink fic: 100 words per day on weekdays, 200 words per day on weekends, except Thursdays. - Mostly, I was sick and stepped back on writing goals until I felt better, and then I hit the end of the story and don't know what's going to happen in some middle parts.

  • Work on TBrown/OFC fic: 200 words per day on weekdays, 300 words per day on weekends, except Thursdays. - Mostly, I was sick and stepped back on writing goals until I felt better, and once I wasn't working on Bollig/Shaw kink fic, I upped this to 300 words per day.

  • Write miscellaneous snippets as inspired. - Check!

  • Say positive things on Twitter. - Somewhat.

Goals for June:
  • Do something about selling book two.

  • Work on book three: 100 words per day, except Thursdays and Saturdays.

  • Work on Bollig/Shaw kink fic: start rewriting bits at the beginning and/or figure out/find someone to help me figure out what happens in the middle bits.

  • Work on TBrown/OFC fic: 300 words per day, except Thursdays, until it's done. (It's so close!)

  • Decide if I'm going to do hockeybigbang and, if so, what I'm going to write for it.

  • Write miscellaneous snippets as inspired.

  • Say positive things on Twitter.

This is not a drill. This is not fic. This is real life.
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Tyler Seguin Skypes/Facetimes/whatevers with Tyler Brown while lying shirtless in bed, and then screencaps it for later:

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April Writing Goals Report, May Writing Goals
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Report on April:
  • Do something about selling book two. - Still no. Sigh.

  • Work on book three: 100 words per day, except Thursdays and Saturdays. - All but two days.

  • Work on Bollig/Shaw kink fic: 100 words per day on weekdays, 200 words per day on weekends, except Thursdays. - All but two days.

  • Work on TBrown/OFC fic: 200 words per day on weekdays, 300 words per day on weekends, except Thursdays. - All but two days.

  • Write miscellaneous snippets as inspired. - Check!

  • Say positive things on Twitter. - Mostly.

Goals for May:
  • Do something about selling book two.

  • Work on book three: 100 words per day, except Thursdays and Saturdays.

  • Work on Bollig/Shaw kink fic: 100 words per day on weekdays, 200 words per day on weekends, except Thursdays.

  • Work on TBrown/OFC fic: 200 words per day on weekdays, 300 words per day on weekends, except Thursdays.

  • Write miscellaneous snippets as inspired.

  • Say positive things on Twitter.

Fic: what we'll teach our children (Hockey, Tyler Brown/Tyler Seguin, 3600 words, Mature)
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Summary: There are four dozen plastic eggs hidden in the house and the makings of Easter dinner in the fridge. They have guests coming over later. Playoffs have started. Segs is still asleep when Tyler gets home from church.

Notes: I have no actual knowledge about either Tyler's religious background, upbringing, or beliefs. I guessed Tyler Brown was raised at least nominally Catholic because he mentioned in an interview that his family is from Montreal. I also took a guess at which players might not have family around for Easter a few years from now. Devin is an actual Stars prospect I chose mostly at random.

Story on AO3


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Hi, my name is Ruth, and I'm a recovering smart kid.
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One of the soul limber prompts in The Desire Map is, "What's different about me is that". My first thought, the thing I wrote down immediately, was, "I'm smart," and then I had this whole "UGH" feeling about it, and I wrote, "BUT THAT'S NOT ALL I AM OR WANT TO BE."

I was always the smart kid growing up. I got good grades and had the highest SAT scores in my graduating class. Teachers didn't always know what to do with me. I spent a lot of time withdrawing and reading because I had already gotten whatever it was we were covering in class. I think being smart is valuable and part of who I am and part of what makes me special in the world. I also think always being the smart kid can be damaging and limiting.

What I learned from being the smart kid: you always have to know the right answer. You always have to succeed (at least at things that rely on you being smart; I never had a 4.0 because of my B/B+ PE grades, and as an adult, I'm okay with not being good at physical things).

Illustrative story 1: The beginning of seventh grade, possibly even the first day of seventh grade, and one of the kids I've known since fourth grade raises his hand and says, in response to something I can't even remember now, "Ruth is always right." Our English teacher looks at us and says, "Ruth is always right," as if it's a truism about the universe.

Illustrative story 2: In tenth grade, we had an awesome Honors Biology teacher. One of the things she did was extra credit on tests if you happened to use whatever she'd chosen as the secret word, which was always something we'd talked about in class. (This is relevant to the story so you know that giving extra credit for creativity was a thing she did.) We would go over our tests as a class when we got them back. For one test, she asked someone to read his answer, for which she'd given him a point, and he read out, "For the right answer, see Ruth's paper."

I didn't just learn that smart kids are supposed to know the right answer; I learned that I was supposed to know the right answer. The most important thing I've learned as an adult is that it's okay to fail and it's okay to be wrong. Intellectually, I know this is true. But I still haven't totally internalized it, and getting something wrong can still send me into an internal "I'm not good enough" shame spiral.

I also struggle against the way that "smart" is a hard label to expand beyond. When you're smart, you're supposed to only believe in and engage in things that are intellectual, scientific, fact-based. I'm smart, but that's not all I am: I'm creative; I have a tender and deeply loving heart; I have a daily spiritual practice that connects me to the divinity/oneness of the whole universe. There might be science that says creativity, feelings, and meditation are beneficial to us, but creativity, feelings, and meditation in and of themselves are not intellectual activities, and I keep hitting up against that belief that intellectual things are the only worthy pursuits, even though it's the creativity, feelings, and meditation that make me happy.

I know some of you were also smart kids growing up. Did you have some of these same experiences? Have you found ways to learn to be okay with being wrong? How about ways to expand beyond "smart"?

March Writing Goals Report, April Writing Goals
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Report on March:
  • Do something about selling book two. - No, but at least I figured out what my hangup is. (Or one of them, at least.)

  • Work on book three, 100 words per day, except Thursdays and Saturdays. This can be variable the week I'm on vacation. - Check!

  • Fic projects: write 100 words per day of Bollig/Shaw kink fic, write 200 words per day of TBrown/OFC fic, except Thursdays. This can be variable the week I'm on vacation. - Check!

  • Write miscellaneous snippets as inspired. - Check!

  • Post one ficcish thing to LJ every day. - Check!

  • Say positive things on Twitter. - Mostly!
Goals for April:
  • Do something about selling book two.

  • Work on book three: 100 words per day, except Thursdays and Saturdays.

  • Work on Bollig/Shaw kink fic: 100 words per day on weekdays, 200 words per day on weekends, except Thursdays.

  • Work on TBrown/OFC fic: 200 words per day on weekdays, 300 words per day on weekends, except Thursdays.

  • Write miscellaneous snippets as inspired.

  • Say positive things on Twitter.

A Round-Up of Miscellaneous Snippets and Plot Bunnies (Hockey, Various, 5900 words, Gen to Explicit)
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For the last day of 31 Days of Fic, here is a final fireworks burst of all the other tiny snippets and plot bunnies that aren't posted elsewhere. Things involving non-celebrity partners are at the end, so if that's not your thing, bail when you get to that heading.


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WIP Amnesty: Brioux family feelings (11000 words, Teen)
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The title of this story's doc was briouxs1 (Sean has a boyfriend). As that 1 can attest, this was the first Brioux story I started writing. I gave up on it partly because I wasn't sure exactly what should happen next and partly because I realized the timeline doesn't work at all. (At one point, I have a note to self that says, "Crap. This is the Friday night in 24/7.") It is, however, still my ur-Brioux story, and you can see in it a lot of elements I ended up reusing in other stories.


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WIP Amnesty + Soundtrack: Orbit 50 (Kane RPF, Chris/Steve, 8300 words, Mature)
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I never thought the Chris characterization in this story was quite right, but I really liked it as a story, and kept hoping I would go back to it, but since I haven't worked on it in years, it's time to WIP Amnesty it. (Although I reserve the right to cannibalize the world building for parts, because I still love it.) Fair warning that it's unintentionally very D/s-y.

At some point, I started building a playlist for this story, even though the story wasn't finished.

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